An Inflammation Of Consciousness


I’ve been thinking about this topic for a long time and it is such a complex issue, that I can only touch upon certain aspects that would certainly deserve a discussion of their own. But this article is less about an analysis of the current situation than about finding a way for something new and more healthy.

For the relationship between men and women was always considered a particularly tricky affair. Already the ancient Greeks had a theatrical play, a comedy even about men and women, sex and power: Lysistra. And still we have ever more literature and films about this that never fall short of their entertainment value and also actual events – that may be less entertaining but occupy a lot of people´s minds.

The latest expression of this is the present #metoo movement – that is currently evoking a ton of international confessions – by more or less well known women or men, who suffered more or less molestation by men in superior positions of power, but occasionally also profited from it… And confessions by men who more or less ruefully admit to their violation of boundaries but partly also feel like the victim.

We need to become aware of this

Of course it´s great that this is gaining strength in the public awareness: that there obviously is a massive problem in a healthy togetherness of men and women and certainly not just since the American film producer Harvey Weinstein was publicly apprehended because he treats young women less like humans but like candy to which he is entitled. And he certainly isn´t the first who made the headlines – only currently one of the most well known. But this is regularly news: the French politician Dominik Strauß-Kahn and former US president Bill Clinton and in Germany – not quite as internationally famous – the FDP politician Rainer Brüderle in 2013 and the latest example: the famous US actor Kevin Spacey, who until now was considered publicly rather as unblemished.

A great wave of outrage is usually met by a smaller wave of remorsefulness (even though it seems to be growing every time) and public concern or even worry. Then the media and the minds calm down again – until the next ‘last straw’ or, as we say in German, the next time the barrel runs over. Whether this actually has consequences for the individual only the people involved know. It is possible that something will change for the producer and maybe even in the American film industry. But do laws and rules actually prevent people from not exploiting their positions of power? For that not only applies to men.

Power is being exploited

Gender studies revealed that this has not only been the case in our several thousand years of experienced patriarchy. Also the previous matriarchic times – though praised and glorified by many – had their shadow aspects and men suffered despite their physical superiority from their inferior status to women who exploited their power and rank. To be honest, we needn´t even look as far back in time as that: we also had women in power positions in our history that used it mercilessly to their advantage, also concerning men and sex: Cleopatra, Elizabeth I, Katharine the great of Russia etc. In brief: if certain women have the opportunity to do so, they take it…

Also acts of domestic violence are not only committed by men. Berlin has had a men´s shelter for quite a long time where men who suffer from violent wives can seek refuge. Furthermore it is well known by now that psychic and emotional violence may not always be quite as obvious but is just as traumatic as physical violence. And then there is also the tricky area where women in a seemingly inferior position put men intentionally or unintentionally in a difficult situation by accusing them of having been molested, even though it is actually not true. Careers and lives have also been destroyed by this.

A matter of integrity

To be honest, I actually think that rules might help occasionally but that they are not the solution to the actual problem: that humans who are in a superior position of power will not make use of this if they find somebody attractive and who may or actually not reciprocate their feelings and transgress into intimate areas. Shame, fear of bribery and frequently economic dependencies are powerful dynamics and no rule and no law can spare you the decision whether you choose your own integrity or the possible gain. Would I have had a ‘better’ career if I had accepted certain indecent offers at certain times? That´s actually quite likely. Would I be better off today? Certainly not on a soul level. And let´s not forget that there are still places and situations among mankind where it´s not a choice between selfrespect and selfbetrayal but life and death!

There are also cultural differences: Mediterranean women in Germany think something might be wrong with them at first because they hardly get any catcalls. North European women are flabbergasted how their fellow female passengers manage riding on the full busses in Rome. For if the bus is only mildly crowded you are groped by so many hands your own two are not enough to ward them off.

Fear and shame are omnipresent, the dark figures are high and the legal grey zone is huge: when is it flirtatious or a rude advance? When is an utterance a compliment or an insult? When it is intended or perceived as such? And then these many undefinable and unpleasant small things that only become a serious molestation in sum. We are all familiar with this: the welcoming kiss that is taking too long, the pushing of the abdomen against the other while what should only be a friendly hug…the hand that lingers a little too long on the back or slides too fast to the buttocks. That someone feels like a victim – whether justified or unjustified – cannot by changed by any rules.

Facing it together is wise

Just to prevent any misunderstandings: rape is not part of the grey zone – it is mostly a very clear act of violence that should be pursued. Not only for the sake of the victim, also the perpetrator can carry longterm damage – especially if he is ‘actually’ not the type and wonders his life long, why this had to happen to him ‘of all people’.

Thordis Elva and Tom Stranger are a woman and a man who describe their traumatic encounter that had a massive effect on both their lives in a book and a ted talk in a most touching way and also how they liberated themselves from the trauma and continue to do so. Of course this is an exception so far, but one that shows what´s possible if the people concerned accept their responsibility and strive for healing. In this case it was the young woman who sought out the man a few years after the rape. They had been a couple until the rape that  then was the cause for their break-up. It is well known that in most cases victim and rapist knew each other and perhaps even loved another – that makes it all the more powerful if they support each other´s healing. But enough about this – you can easily find more online.

I actually want to go a step further in this article: for me the question arising is: what is actually at the root of this remarkably often dysfunctional relationship between men and women?

A disease of consciousness

I dare say we have a chronic collective flu of our consciousness. Some people suffer more from it than others. Some deal with chronic pains, others have gotten accustomed to a kind of ‘continous cold’, like you get used to a scar. It´s always there, causing – depending on the weather – sometimes major, sometimes minor irritation but there is nothing you can do about it and in general you manage your daily life, sometimes better, sometimes worse… Yet others get severely ill from it and even die on occasion. Only very few seem to be immune or managed to heal the disease completely and are profoundly healthy. This virus of consciousness is so familiar to us, that we consider its existence and the according pains for normal, actually part of health. While we consider its absence as highly abnormal and sometimes even as downright mad.

Our media are filled with this and contribute their share: the American writer Jordan Pargin, aka David Wong, editor in chief of the webzine Cracker described vividly how heroes embodied for example by ‘real guys’ like Sean Connery and Harrison Ford conquer their women usually against their will and finally with more or less violence. Once kissed the recalcitrant cat lets go of all her resistance and turns into a devotedly purring kitten in his strong arms.  The dramatically effective game of predator and prey is certainly quite entertaining in a movie but has nothing to do of course with a respectful treatment of each other.

The erotic shadow

Nonetheless there is a primal dynamic at play that eroticizes men as well as women: I remember a study – it must have been in the late 1990ies, unfortunately I cannot find it anymore – that made a lasting impression on me. The study was how men and women treat each other after a fight. According to the results of the study, when a woman was winning over a man, she lost his erotic interest in him. But if he was the winner…it increased. Because he was stronger, he matched the primal instinct that a father has to be strong enough to protect his offspring. This overrules the feeling of integrity. Is that true?

I can only speak for myself and of course I think it´s wonderful when a man notices my vulnerability, honors it and is absolutely willing to protect me from verbal or physical violence…I consider it attractive and it intensifies my feelings for my own femininity. And then I´m happy to hold his beer and sometimes even give him a backrub later…

However when a man is trying to find protection by me, I become wary – my “Mommy-alarm-bell” goes off and I feel anything but sexy. I have also witnessed how women fought for their male partners in their presence and kind of defended their honor. Like certain mothers, who jump into the sandbox in the playground to help their children fight each other… This is partly amusing and partly strange: for everybody involved in such a situation is anything but adult or mature and are actually not interested in a sovereign resolution but in winning. But the victory can only lasts until the next challenge arises…

Is male violence always bad?

I frequently meet men who tell me that it´s the aspect of violence they particularly hate in men and consider rape the worst. They feel for the poor women and have nothing but contempt for men who commit such abominations. I easily label such statements without further discernment as “rather lamb than lion” and they make me, to be honest, somewhat aggressive. Of course I agree that rapes are an abomination – but concerned pity with the victims is hardly helpful. Courageous compassion would have more power. I would like men – if they ever get in such a situation – to courageously intercede… And if need is, even invest their physical strength. I like reminding man of this ilk that any fire fighter or surgeon has to apply violence to promote the wellbeing of others. And finally it is not only about offering women  martial arts and self -defense classes, but to also teach men what consequences violence against women can have. Not only for the victim but for them too.

There is hardly an awareness in our culture and even less knowledge that there are massive and complex psycho-energetic repercussions for both. Not only bad karma, to say it spiritually offhandedly. To explain this in  more detail would make this article too long, suffice it to say that this act of violence damages the subtle energetic structure of both in a lasting way. For it is an act of non-love and removes both further from love. It has an effect on every future encounter with another potential partner in love for example.

There is a lot of suffering

I believe in truth we all suffer far more from this than we are aware: the lack of healthy models of femininity and masculinity and a healthy relationship are far too few and the media thrive on the lack thereof and the search for it. For only very few people have a healthy awareness of their gender identity

I don´t know when this inflammation in humanity began, what virus may have caused it. But it´s a fact that we have had it for a such a long time we consider it natural. And of course there were and are institutions and movements that profit extremely from this inflammation and therefore have no interest in having it ever healed. Quite the contrary, like most of the churches and religions, the military, the economy, fascism and many others. As a matter of fact they promote the incurability.

So generation by generation people accept all the convictions that are considered wisdom that love is not possible without suffering, that men and women will never get along, the “battle of the sexes” is a set phrase, the divorce rates increase continuously and have only become less in Germany because less people got married in the first place and so there are less marriages to divorce. The trust in marriage has sunk continuously and never have there been more singles in our culture – and that without a war that could have eliminated potential marriage partners.

Many factors feed the inflammation

Talking of war, that also has a major effect on the imbalanced attitude of the genders toward each other. It can be said that generally women can develop a hatred towards men for generations because they blame the responsibility for making war on them. For these lead to the deaths of the fathers, husbands, brothers and sons and they felt abandoned with the younger children and running the homes.  Or sometimes the husbands and fathers came back so traumatized that the relationship was more painful than anything else. That is also often the root of an inherited disdain for men and wariness that you cannot really rely on them… Men on the other hand can feel a certain lack of respect and appreciation for generations, because women won´t honor the great sacrifice they made or risk they took in the wars in order to protect them, their children and their home country. They were willing to give their lives for the protection of the family. That these sacrifices wouldn´t have been necessary if there had been no wars at alll sometimes leads to a general hatred of mankind and being human on both sides.

Besides the collective and inherited imprints this is further supplemented by family trauma that have an effect on our subconscious behavior: perhaps the great grandmother was raped, maybe the grandmother frequently betrayed her husband, maybe the great uncle had to witness the rape of his mother, maybe the grandfather hit his children, just like he was hit himself…whatever. But many are not even aware of their subconscious programs may they be self created or transmitted. They are then amazed when they realize – as is so very often the case in my sessions – that a certain problem can be based in either a hatred for women, for men or both that of course severly damages the sense of our self worth.

A damaged self worth

This applies to men and women of all ages. But we are all responsible for how we feel and act – no matter from which area in our consciousness the behavior is driven and are called on that by others. Only very few are always aware of what they´re doing and where a feeling originated and have the sovereignty to deal with an inappropriate situation in an appropriate way: i.e. during the group photo shoot while smiling into the camera in front, an unwelcome hand is suddenly placed on a woman´s buttocks, or standing at a funeral a young man gets pinched in his behind… And if alcohol and drugs are involved it´s even more difficult. And then there are the certain specimen of our species that can ruin the reputation of their fellows in gender: the complete stranger who set down next to me in the subway and after two stations suddenly wrapped his arm around me and lecherously drew me towards himself, breathing into my neck or the young woman in a tight black leather skirt and semi-transparent lace top who is then surprised if she receives not only one smack on her behind in the bar. She can certainly wear whatever she wants and yes of course it´s not an invitation to treat someone in a vulgar way just because her clothing style is vulgar. I also don´t pull out the matches when I see a fire fighter or show my latest scar when I encounter a doctor… Alas, we´re not always master or mistress of our senses and so faux pas occur – independent from age, level of education or culture. It is human and only turns bad if you don´t accept the responsibility for your faux pas. The rogue and the gentleman can go together, just like the hussy and the lady. They are even considered attractive combinations and are actually not all that rare.

But if the other is blamed for the faux pas than you´re back in the victim-perpetrator dynamic and that ruins it for everybody and yes, minors in contact with adults are a bit of a different issue.

However one thing is clear when subconscious victim encounters subconscious perpetrator and they then blame each other for whatever happened and are not willing to deal with it consciously and constructively it gets worse and worse and draws ever more people into this malevolent maelstrom. Only very few of us can currently deal so sovereignly with members of the other sex in situation when attraction isn´t mutual and the assault comes as a surprise (Women: you know exactly what I mean, men: ask the next woman you meet, what I mean) that no grudge, prejudice, insult and disregard and sometimes even hatred and violence will ensue.

All of us still have a lot to learn and more important than the many causes of the consciousness inflammation is the question whether its curable.

Can we ever heal from it?

Do we actually stand a chance to ever get out of this mined territory? And if so, how? Where are models of a healthy treatment of men and women to be encountered that can offer orientation? Where can people feel so safe that they can dare to react honestly? Where they can come to terms with the shocking or traumatic experience with kind help and don´t have to fear some kind of humiliation or have to be ashamed for long time? Where everybody is finally so aware and conscious that these violations of boundaries vanish all by themselves eventually?

The western cultures  consider themselves so highly advanced because violence against fellow human beings, also inside a marriage is considered illegal and women are free to choose their profession and are even allowed to vote…but we are still far from a relaxed mode of equality or even justice.

Is that even conceivable? This question has been on my mind for so long time that I asked the spirit realm with the help of a psychic in 2005 if there had ever been a time in the history of mankind where men and women were NOT engaged in a power struggle? The answer was that yes, there were times in Atlantis and Lemura…about 20.000 years ago… I was shocked that it was so very long ago…but grateful that it has existed at all. That means we have it somewhere in the databank of our consciousness and can draw  upon it, if we do things right…

Since then I´ve been collecting what might help us to get there again. Hopefully it won´t take us as long as deviating from it. I believe it lies in our own hands.

It is up to us

We have to practice caring and conscious consent with each other and teach that to our sons and daughters, even if it is difficult and thereby prevent all the many misunderstandings that are often at the root of what then leads to more or less unforgivable events. We have to learn to forgive – the other as well as ourselves: for it is important to face your own part in the occurred experience. Then we have to accept responsibility for our behavior, allow for compassion and finally let go of the event.

We have to be aware of the fact that indeed each of us is responsible for our part of an unfortunate experience but that many things can lead up to such a situation and that all of us are responsible to change these or rather constructively change the way they´re dealt with. For instance in the families where the physical exchange of love between the parents has grown cold and they demand a little too much warmth and touching from their children; fathers who kiss their daughters on their mouths, mothers who cry on the shoulders of their sons… or help couples who want to end their relationship to do it in such a way that it will not stop them from having a new relationship or will have a negative effect on it – for instance by taking subconscious revenge on the new partner for what the previous partner did to them.

Time to get rid of the victim-perpetrator dynamic

We truly have to be aware that there is not perpetrator that is not actually acting from a place of hurt – consciously or subconsciously – and therefore was actually a victim at some point and that every victim that refuses to face the experienced powerlessness and hurt carries the potential to ultimately also become a perpetrator – maybe in a moment when he or she thinks it the most unlikely… For many humans do such things, they ‘actually’ didn´t ever want to do…

Furthermore it is important to measure your own behavior against your own standards: was it kind, loving life affirming? Was it supposed to be and if not, why not? And also not to make the negative behavior of others the standard or even use it as a justification. Children do that, they say “X started it first…And if Y got away with it, I might at least try how far I get…” A healthy adult tries to find healthy fulfillment of his needs without disregarding the needs of others.

The key is the conscious dealing with it, to increasingly clean up your own subconscious…to free yourself from all the old imprints and the unredeemed shadows. To transform those aspects within us we´d rather hide from others and yet they come through and usually in an unpleasant way: i.e. jealousy, envy, revenge etc. Very often something positive is hidden within them.

Only if we are willing to accept that we are also responsible for our shadows and their transformation the application of the famous golden rule “Treat others as you want to be treated by them.” can really unfold it´s love promoting effects. For otherwise we do to others – driven by a subconscious program – things that we wouldn´t want to actually experience in good sense and at daylight…but if we have an aspect that has a subconscious need for being hurt things can take a different course.

Collect good experience

Occasionally Tantra workshops can offer positive experience. And no, frequent prejudice (Sex orgies! Promiscuity! Drugs!) are truly not valid. My first Tantra workshop was a revelation to me and the most wonderful experience of a social encounter of men and women until then. Relaxed body contact was possible without ever turning into any kind of assault. The degree of tenderness and intimacy was mutually agreed upon. Men as well as women felt welcome, accepted, attractive and respected just the way they were…

However I was to discover that this applies to only very few Tantra workshops, preferably to those offered by teachers with a high level of integrity. Otherwise there is a raging monster of neediness present and not everybody has the willingness to feed the often massive hunger for body contact or more in the other in a generous way. Then misunderstandings and transgressions occur often that reduce the pleasure of the whole event.

Yet I learned a lot about men and women at Tantra workshops and also,  how we underrate the importance of the body. It is truly not only about sex. Children´s psychologists say that a healthy child should be hugged 14 times a day at least… However many didn´t experience that as children and when they live as a grown-up single person the physical loneliness can be become a bigger issue than they care to admit. No wonder that snuggle groups have become popular since the turn of the millennium and there are very clear rules: if you grope instead of cuddle – you get kicked out.

Other countries, other customs

There are actually countries where certain things function better than in our continuously considered superior Western culture. Eight years ago, I was during a trip to the Arab Emirates how much I was at ease there as a woman. Of course I had all the knowledge about the ever inferior and powerless position of women within Islam in mind and also adjusted myself to the local customs: long skirts and sleeves and an occasional headscarf. But what astonished me was that most of the Arab men met me with a  respect and an awe that I had never experienced anywhere before. For the first time in my life – at age 43 – I got a feeling that being a woman is something precious and my respect for these mostly very polite, considerate and respectful men grew. That was apparently the ‘light side’ of Islam. So far I had only known about the dark side, that women are considered less than men… But that is not quite that simple. If we are honest there is a dark side to Christianity too, that peaked during the times of the witch hunts and to this day we have dutiful Christians who, when falling for a woman or even become violent towards her consider themselves the victim of her devilish charm, who may have employed something as sinful as high heels, a low neckline and a seductive perfume…just to tease them and ultimately disempower them. So all kinds of distortions in various variations.

The key to the solution

Obviously we are currently dealing not only with an occasional personal issue but it is fundamentally social and even collective, transcending generations and cultures. However the solution is only possible individually.

The ultimate goal must be the healing of your personal self-worth by reflecting your behavior and making the according changes. This includes looking at your own wounds with compassion and to transform them so that they don´t any longer have a destructive effect on the way you act. We all have to learn that and teach it to our children. This will take time. But observing your own behavior will show you where your wounds that need healing are. Each one of us is called to make sure that we are more aware of how we behave and act.  Just looking at it occasionally, reflection and a conscious change of how you act can lead to an improvement for yourself and everyone you come in contact with. If you cannot move ahead by yourself, you may know people whom you trust to discuss it together. Furthermore there are books and courses and if you want even stronger support there are therapists and coaches and counsellors who also offer useful help. There are many possibilities.

Furthermore its worthwhile to be aware of how you want to be treated as a man or a woman? Old behavioural patterns that are usually based on models and examples from the family, the culture and ideological concepts may need careful revision. Are they still proving to be helpful to you and what you´d like to achieve? There are already many wise people in our culture who discuss this vividly in public articles, talks, books and many discussions online and ask the question: Page or Knight? Maid or Mistress? Prince or King? Princess or Queen.

If you free yourself, you free others

With every positive change, with the growing realization that you are increasingly less the slave of your own unresolved issues, you become more free and more aware of how you treat yourself and others. IF you truly accept, honor and appreciate yourself – even love yourself, then you have no need to improve on this healthy self-worth by humiliating or abusing a fellow being or enjoys inflicting pain on others. Then you can meet others at eye´s level, appreciative and aware of boundaries and possibly even find a good solution together. Then there is no need for the painful polarization of victim and perpetrator to even emerge.

But each and every one of us is responsible for our own self worth, also in regard to our gender identity and possible role in society. No laws and punishments can help with that. This means working on your growth in consciousness.  We all have to do that ourselves and ought to encourage each other… If everybody truly did that our world could become very different very soon. Even if many will shrug it off or downright refuse it this very necessary development will only be slowed down. For there are more and more people doing it already. The more people realize this and start joining them, the faster and comprehensively this inflammation of consciousness can be healed – human by human – for the wellbeing of all.







Feminine Super Powers

Finally I went with a dear friend to watch Wonder Woman (USA 2017) in the movie theatre. Several critics celebrated the movie as the best comic book adaption for a while, the high number of viewers and box-office results confirmed this and in general the movie is now considered as a worthwhile opening for more femininity in the super hero genre.

The movie is indeed great fun: the actors are good, the story works and the characters are a bit more exciting and interesting than one might expect. Visually it is particularly enticing: great scenography, great camera, great editing and impressive special effects and of course action, action, action: there are so many chases and fights and collisions that it is a veritable opera of bangs, crashs and blasts. And the leading actress does a great job with just the right mixture of grace, sexiness and aggression. Wonder Woman is depicted by the jung Israeli woman Gal Gadot, whose career began as Miss Israel. Furthermore she was in the Israeli army and obviously has a talent for combat and dance – she has the necessary mastery of her body. Apart from that she is married and has two daughters – and when she went to up notch film event and came in evening gown, however in flat shoes stunned reporters asked her why she wasn´t wearing high heels and she answered kindly: “Because it´s more comfortable!’ So a down to earth and seemingly likeable woman!

It is also worth noting that the film was directed by a woman and grossed the highest box-office results a female director has managed thus far. Which means the film was also viewed by and popular for men – and hopefully there is no need in the future to mention this specifically. For of course men can be enthusiastic about a female hero, especially in their favored genres – and Jenkins does not avoid the traditionally masculine genres like action and horror not in the least, as her biography shows.

Jenkins said about her movie, that Wonder Woman realized in the end and also says that ultimatively it´s about love! As true as I find this, I don´t find it quite convincing in the film – for she has this thought while holding a tank above her head just to drop it on the female villain, crouching below it. It made me actually think that she doesn´t want to ruin the potential for a sequel…

But yes, in the end Diana Prince aka Wonderwoman says in her voice over that it´s always worthwhile fighting for love and justice – and who would want to question that?

Wonder Woman´s origin

Wonder Woman is traditionally clearly an American woman – usually her hero´s attire is in the colors of the US flag, however less so in the latest movie.  Here her lineage from the Greek gods is stressed and the story takes place in a battle ridden Europe of the first World War. But the character is much older than the movie, she was added to the comic book universe in 1941. In the early 1940ies, Max Gaines, the publisher of DC comics was worried that his comic books might be too violent for the mostly juvenile readers and turned to his advisor William Marston, not only a comic book writer but also a psychologist and very strongly influenced by unconventional and strong women of his day: he lived together with his wife, his mistress and four children. According to legend, Marston said to Gaines: ‘What you need, is a female super hero. She will be as strong as superman, but basically a pacifist. She will fight for democracy but also for equal rights for women. And her super powers will be love, truth and beauty.’ Max Gaines decided to give it a go and as I don´t know the original comic books I have no idea in how far this was achieved.

But if I was now asked if the youngest Wonder Woman has specifically female super powers that mark her heroism I would draw a blank. Though she is clearly beautiful and focused on truth – in the film she confronts others, mostly men mercilessly with her attitude concerning saving the innocent and accuses them of lacking compassion. And love may be her motivation, but is not her power that consists of – as in her male colleagues – primarily a physical superiority. So she appears to be more feminine – not only because of her wonderfully sexy outfit, but she also solves the current conflicts like her male colleagues ultimately with force, violence, some magic (she can fly and create a force wave) and combat skills.

The same applies to the new TV-Series ‘Supergirl’, which also attempts by introducing ‘Superman’s cousin (and a whole megillah of relatives of seemingly lost Cryptonides due to their planetary catastrophe) to expand the genre for the feminine.

Super Chick

I also thought that it was about time for this during my film studies in the US in the late 1990ies and had created a story along those lines. In my version Superman had had an affair with an Australian Olympic swimmer. The fruit of that encounter was then overwhelmed by her superpowers at the onset of her period. After several visits to doctors and psychologists who all explain that this is not a temporary side effect of puberty, but indeed extraordinary, Mom finally reveals the truth – she once spent a night with a flying American in a red cape!

The heroine decides to find her father – of course against the wishes of her mother, but who can stop a teenager with super powers? So the girl travels to America and learns to deal with her powers ever better on the way. However she also draws the attention of the opposing forces to herself (the genre requires them…). The story culminates in her running into the arms of the evil guys while searching for her father who is indeed already imprisoned by them but uniting their forces, they manage to liberate themselves and yet again save the world.

Two things put the development of this pretty idea to an end. For one the professor in whose class I had developed the story explained that the rights to Superman and all that was attached to him were with DC (Detective Comics) and that they´d never give them away and would also not accept ideas that were not exactly matching the lore of their super heroes,  who are after all, already established characters in the marvel universe. And my ‘Super Daughter’ was clearly going too far.

Furthermore a fellow student remarked it reminded him of the Stephen King Novel ‘Carrie’ where a young girl has telekinetic abilities from childhood on but they really become strong at the onset of her period. As usual with King the whole thing escalates most gruesomely and ends with a massacre during which also the heroine dies. I had no wish whatsoever to feed such ideas.

But I too fell for the notion then, to equip a woman with super male powers!

Today I wonder whether that would really have inspired me as a young viewer – I am sure that a few young girls will become more excited then about martial arts, but that was never my interest. So this raised the question what super feminine powers would truly inspire and be so motivating that one would feel compelled to make an effort to make our world a better one! For this is always the ultimate goal of a comic book hero…

And yes, of course I´d find it exciting to master telekinesis, like Carrie or the classic Superman abilities, like flying – without the cape getting caught. The x-ray gaze, the superlistening, the relative invulnerability and of course the super strength: being able to carry the grocery bags with one finger and park the car upright, if need is would come in handy occasionally.

However – those are somehow super masculine powers: the immense physical strength and always the fight for justice and the ending of battles by simply turning everything into dust and cinders -I do not only find unsatisfying but also boring.

Truly feminine super powers

But what would be possibilities to bring order to our chaotic, violent and unjust human world with more feminine super powers? And I´m not talking telekinesis as it was exhibited by Mary Poppins or the amazing Jeannie cleaning up the nursery or managing household chores with a nod.

After some musing I came up with the following:

  • Being able to decode feelings and become aware of their origin – and therefore the source of any conflict
  • Being able to lead humans from fear to compassion – for an opponent can become rather helpless if one focuses on his weakness, his pain…
  • Being able to heal with a glance or touch
  • Being able to make any weapon dysfunctional with a glance
  • Mastering complicated tasks by enlisting help from others, i.e. if the threatening ocean liner was stopped by cetaceans.
  • Being able to make landscapes green again with a gesture – turning battle fields into blooming gardens…

In line with my current research, concerning the specific feminine energy that is allegedly now finding its path in our collective consciousness, I would furthermore – if I could – encourage ALL superheroes to use less violence and destruction and find a more feminine, maybe more softer but certainly more sustainable path.

For in my opinion every villain is only evil, because he is deeply wounded and hurt – to heal that and do reconciliation work would probably be more rewarding than simply getting rid of him. Furthermore I would welcome more cooperation – not only among the super heroes (and that is actually already taking place, i.e. the Fantastic Four) but especially among humans and an instruction of their consciousness that many people together can actually be a superpower to be reckoned with!

It would also be most fabulous if she could radiate such an aura of peaceful power that nobody felt a need for violent combat anymore – has Buddha been turned into a super hero yet? Love and beauty too, of course!  The super powers that can emanate from that are known by all people who truly love or have been touched by beauty in a deep and lasting way.

And if anybody thinks that this isn´t entertaining and requires less action, I beg to differ. I am absolutely positive there are ways to make this visually interesting and that more psychological depth would not necessarily require more dialogue, quite the opposite. Besides, I´m tired of the continuous war scenes. I would find the amazing appearance of fish to save the oceans or birds to save the skies quite more original!

I am sure there is room for a lot more – and I´m curious how the genre will develop further and the changes that Wonder Woman and her colleagues might undergo, for the comic book literature mirrors the Zeitgeist always very clearly!


The feminine consciousness of creation

readymade: the breath of the goddess
the breath of the goddess | wooden boats, gilded, sage and cedar from Taos, New Mexico | born in Timmendorfer Strand, Germany in 2016

The pictures of the performative art event 1000 Gestalten (1000 creatures), a kind of quiet demonstration during the G20 summit in Hamburg, Germany on July 5th 2017 touched me deeply. In an impressive way it shows the powerlessness of all the sole beings who begin as a grey anonymous mass and then – human by human – liberate themselves and each other and reveal the power of the many through community. In deep silence, peacefully and intensely these performance artists communicate a very powerful message: man is more than his functions and roles and yearns for peace and freedom… Then I thought of Yael Deckelbaum, Miriam Toukan and the “Women Wage Peace” movement. Again art, this time music, put in service of worldwide peace. And again there is talk about the rise of the feminine in the world. Is there a connection?

Musing about this my dear friend Casmina Magdalena Haas came to my mind whom I highly appreciate not only as a friend, but also as an artist. I perceive her to be truly feminine and if someone were to ask me if there was something like feminine art, I would clearly refer them to Casmina.

A broad, feminine consciousness

Furthermore Casmina has been highly clairvoyant and clairaudient since her childhood. She is able to perceive the impulse of creation in its manifold renditions. She can literally communicate telepathically with everything that is sentient – if it wants to communicate with her as well… For example dogs tend to be rather talkative, whereas cats are more reticent. But Casmina also speaks with rocks, plants, deserts, oceans and expressions of consciousness for which we don´t even have words, but who are in our world and interact with us nonetheless. Unfortunately most people don´t have a sense for this, but Casmina, with her expanded consciousness does and therefore I considered it a good idea, to ask her about art and the feminine in our times:

What do you think is the task of art for a human being?

Art is a tool of our very own inner space, to make ourselves and that what we are, visible and experienceable. Ideally art takes us as creator as well as onlooker into the center of our own power. Art reminds us of what we are and of that which wants to be placed and anchored through us in the world. Art is a means of creation within and through us. It reaches into everything that is endowed with life from creation itself.

painting: female release
female release | pine needles, gold, acrylic, chalk on canvas panel | 30 x 30 cm | born in Orange Grove, Tucson – Arizona 2015

Where do your creative impulses come from?

My art emerges from my cooperation with the earth´s field of creation, which is nature and in this manner exposes the sacred space of materialized light. It is in each and all of us, in all things that live and supremely in that which we cannot explain, but sense. Through my love for the field of creativity, that creates and renews the universe, our earth and ourselves constantly, my art pools the creative expression of life itself. My art documents with all my love the tireless sacred cycle of life, death and rebirth.

The idea and realization of the Interdimensional Art (term for her current work, note E.) emerged from the many years of my artistic path. From the actual creative process as well as from my love for nature, earth, life itself and especially the deep space of the origin of all new beginnings that in turn create life.

Delighting in this I travel the world, enter communication with rain forests, deserts, mountains, continents… During my meditative retreats in various countries my art emerges from these sensitive and at the same time powerful encounters with earth and her creations, I collect sticks, grasses, sand, stones, leaves, feathers, animal hides, bones etc. in nature. These I weave into my art work, may it be paintings, installations or readymades (a kind of objet trouvé  arranged in a special way by Casmina, note E.) From this collection of natural materials oftentimes art works emerge autonomously. While doing this I experience myself in a creative synthesis with materialized life itself. Many of my works were born around the world in this way in recent decades. They are also always a reference to the particular energy, history but also the potential of a specific landscape, a country or continent.

Thereby earth expresses herself through me as part of the feminine. As part of that what we all are – a yet unexplored miracle of life itself, which can never be truly understood but holistically sensed and thereby experienced. My art is a reference to the infinity of creation itself and – ideally – a deep reminder of that to which we can only surrender, life, the “divine” and the endless eternity…

readymade: the monumental needn´t be large
the monumental needn´t be large | wood, rose quartz – gilded | born in Timmendorfer Strand, Germany in 2016

Your works are called: “Breath of the Goddess” or “Freedom of the Earth Soul”. How do you come up with those titles?

The titles of my work emerge out of the creative process. Or during the creative process while it becomes ever more tangible what frequency of life they transfer. In some cases the intention that is inherent to the piece of art reveals itself in interaction with the viewer and even more often in interaction with the buyer, who usually always develops a rather intimiate and emotional relationship to a work of mine.  

What do you think, why the feminine is currently so popular?

In our world today the yearning for the truth of life is ever expanding, for religion, society and science are reaching their natural limits. Art is the field through which we can consciously participate in creation. Through art we give creation more space in our life and in our society.

Nowadays the feminine field in particular reminds us of the depth of peace of all being. Very naturally and obviously it constantly creates life out of itself and lets it flow continually.

The feminine in art is a field that deeply knows but doesn´t want anything. It is a quiet space, constantly informing us beyond all words through manifestation about beauty, dignity and uniqueness of any creation. Thereby we can be reconnected to the miracle that we ourselves are as part of creation.

This reconnection can reward us with the insight that there is nothing to improve. But that it´s about accepting the abundance and the freedom that is inherent in creation and to share it with each other. In and through this force field peace is not only possible but a natural consequence of the respect for life itself. Everyone is able do this and together we make it ever stronger. Isn´t that wonderful?

painting: freedom of the earth soul
freedom of the earth soul | feathers, gold, sand, acrylic, oil on canvas panel | 30 x 30 cm | born in Tucson, Arizona 2016

About Casmina Magdalena Haas and her work:

From the beginning of our friendship on, the exploration of creativity and especially of women as creators was one of our favorite subjects. I could often observe how Casmina´s work emerged and changed throughout its development. From every trip she brought back new impulse, new paintings, new readymades.

In all of these an aspect that is inherent to her work in a special way became increasingly clear since 2012: a material expression of reverence to nature and creation itself. They seem almost like physical prayers of love, worship and gratitude. Often the onlookers of her works get tears in their eyes or become very quiet, as if they entered a holy place. And indeed every space that contains her art and where it can unfold its power becomes sacred in the best of senses and it can actually turn it into a healing space. For who is open to this can be touched in the core of his being and thereby remembers who he truly is. That is a deeply healing experience.

Meanwhile it has been observed that her paintings shine in darkness. Photographed without flash they seem as if they illuminate their environment. This obviously particular energy that emanates from her work has been examined by a dowser. He measured that it can achieve up to 200.000 Bovis which means the paintings and sculptures lift the frequency in their environment with a range of up to 20 kilometers.  Sensitive people often notice the healing power of their radiation. In fact Casmina´s paintings can open the personal access to creation and the sacred presence of all that is in the viewer and thereby the frequency of universal love in the hearts of human beings.

After studying art at the art academy in Munich, Germany and the college of arts in Bremen, Germany, Casmina Haas has been working freelance as an artist since 2000. Currently she is living on the Baltic Sea and all over the world. Almost everywhere, where she listened to the song of creation and expresses it in her unique way, she also exhibited her art, may it be in Germany or America, the Arab Emirates or India or the many other place all over the world!

In this manner the special frequency of peace, of harmony and the celebration of creation that distinguishes Casmina and her work is spreading ever further in a natural, gentle and yet sustainable way. Truly a feminine path!

readymade: and they dreamt on and on
and they dreamt on and on | angel wings of plaster, gilded, coyote heads | born in Timmendorfer Strand, Germany in 2016

Note: These two dimensional renditions  do the actual power of this multidimensional art hardly justice, unfortunately. On Casmina´s homepage this works much better and there is also more to be found about her!

Growth Curves

I had sworn myself not to write any cat stories and definitely not to post any pictures. Until my cat foiled it. For part of this decision was based on the idea that my cat doesn´t have the chance to have an exchange with her ilk about her human, for example when she enjoys my perseverance “It´s awfully cute how she keeps rolling the ball, even after I´ve already left.” Or when she is twitching her whiskers mockingly while I do my morning exercise “That´s yoga? Really???”  As long as that is the case, it is unfair if I do it with my ilk. But, things have changed.

So a cat story afterall

Our friendship began two years ago in March when I picked up the ten year old cat missus from the animal shelter, to offer an ageing feline lady some pleasant sunset years, and also hoping that she wouldn´t need quite so much entertainment and diversion as a younger animal. But it turned out that SEVAL as I call her (no idea whether she was a Molly or Lucy before) is in remarkably good shape considering her age and does not relinquish climbing high books shelves (I have high ceilings), pursuing wild chases of real treats and fictional mice throughout the entire apartment and autonomous open air excursions.

When she came to me it was not clear whether she was an exclusively indoor cat or also trained in being outside. She had been found a few days before Christmas outside in the cold, scraggy, listless, full of parasites and suffering from a heart condition. When I took her with me in March, she was free of the parasites, had acquired a bit of weight and had received heart surgery. The fur on her chest was still rather short and petting her belly was not welcome at all. And every new visitor and unpleasant noises like the doorbell, the vacuum cleaner, and the steam iron made her hide under the sofa. In the meantime her black-and-white fur has fully grown back and is thick and shiny, the wheezing sound when she was breathing and purring due to her enlarged heart valve has completely disappeared and her weight is of a healthy amount again. As is her curiosity and sense of adventure, more and more visitors get to see her now and unpleasantly noisy activities like vacuuming and ironing she now watches with a disapproving gaze from high up on the bookshelves.  When we had the first warm evenings this year, she was standing in the midst of the flower pots on the balcony parapet and performed dangerous contortions to get a better overview of the little front garden below her – I live on the first floor. On such days the throwing of balls or goodies and the usually delightful game with a peacock´s feather are for her about as exciting as the umpteenth repeat off a television show.

But last year she had followed me into the backyard while I was taking the garbage out. With two daring jumps she had jumped from the containers over the fence into the neighboring courtyard. When I called her, she replied since last year, when she followed me outside to the backyard while I was taking the garbage out and jumped with two audacious jumps over the fence into the neighboring court yard. When I called her, she answered, mewing miserably but was unable to find the hole in the fence I had opened for her. So finally I had to squeeze myself through the fence and pick her up an unfamiliar house entrance where she cowered ruefully. I then vowed to myself this cat shall remain a house cat.

But some vows need to be broken for love…

For after the third evening of listless roaming of the small balcony on lovely warm evenings, I thought I´d also be unhappy, if I had to spend all that beautiful weather only on a balcony. But what, if the cat ran away and got lost? Or worse, was run over by a car? I live near a busy road…

On the other hand: this cat has had a life before me – if she was used to the outdoors then she should be able to deal with traffic. Thus were my thoughts until a friend gave me an idea. She had seen a woman in the cemetery with a cat on a leash…  A great place to walk a cat for there are no cars nor dogs. Yet I thought walks in the cemetery somehow unattractive and couldn´t imagine Seval walking on a leash. But a mistress only knows what she´s tried out. So I bought a harness and glued my name and number onto it. On the first evening I put the harness on Seval. She accepted that, but didn´t like the result at all. Her disgust felt like: “You´re kidding about this silly thing, aren´t you?” Then she crawled over the floor alongside the walls until I gently lifted her belly and she realized that she could move rather normally. After about twenty minutes she had gotten used to it and didn´t try getting rid of it.

The experiment is launched

I decided to take her to the front yard – without the leash,  shehad my name and number with her after all. She was thrilled, roaming all over the little garden and when I wanted to go inside half an hour later she came with me without any problems. The next evening, another beautiful warm evening, calling her didn´t work at all and I only managed to get her home after I climbed over the fence of a nearby kindergarden and grabbed her by the harness. I decided that going outside was only permitted after 9 pm when there was less traffic in my street and I usually don´t go out anymore after that time so I wouldn´t have to face time pressure in case one of her outings took a little longer. During these two outings of hers I was outside at the same time reading and texting…rather like a mom on a playground watching her kid. By now Seval didn´t mind the harness so much any more even though it always took her a moment until she remembered she could walk in her full height with it. And I felt safe, in case she ran away there was my phone number on her harness. Usually I caught her about half an hour when she was venturing into a neighboring garden or trying to cross the street. But after three evenings of this Seval had enough. It was yet another warm night and this time she managed to get away every time I wanted to grab her. Our front yard is surrounded by a spiky hedge and that made movement for me difficult, while she just crept underneath the shrubs. As a matter of fact she seemed to rather enjoy our little chase, for she was always close but never willing, to come inside. I sat by the steps at the entrance and tried to lure her with calls and treats. She couldn´t have cared less, but sat underneath the rhododendron cleaning herself. Always in view, yet unreachable.

A few neighbors who came and left expressed more or less amused interest. “Oh, you´re walking your cat, are you?” and the undertone made it quite clear that the whole endeavor was not really beneficial to my reputation.

The experiment seemingly fails

I smiled with embarrassment and didn´t say anything and as soon, as they had left I made another attempt at catching my cat. But Seval now knew the hedge much better and wasn´t so easily tricked anymore. Then our favorite neighbor came and asked with compassion whether Seval had fallen from the balcony I shook my head and explained the experiment. She wishes us luck and went inside. By now it was past 11 pm. I had been trying for two hours to catch the cat to absolutely no avail. If laughing cats could be heard, a high pitched giggle would have penetrated the shrubs… Finally at midnight I had to go to the bathroom so badly, I decided to take a short break. When I came back down again, Seval had disappeared completely. I swallowed hard and began getting angry with myself about this most crazy idea. Using my cellphone as a flash light I searched courtyards and gardens, called and mewed but Seval was nowhere to be found. Only the occasional dogowner walking his pet cast me an either worried or bemused glance. But none of them said anything. By now it was almost 1 am and I was too tired to carry on. I decided to go home. Somebody would surely eventually find the cat – she wore the harness with my number, after all! Thank God! Glumly and full of feelings of guilt for being such a bad pet mom I went to bed. What on earth had I been thinking? Seval was a cat! An animal, for Christ´s sake!!!

Nightly wake-up call

My cellphone was in reach and put on full volume and when a text message came at 3 am, I jumped out of bed, hoping somebody had found Seval. But it was a text message from the US and du to the different time zones it had reached me at this ungodly hour even though it was only 9 pm for the sender.

Nonetheless I stepped onto the balcony and gazed hopefully down into the front garden. And indeed there was a black-and-white something directly under the balcony mewing loudly as she heard me. Grateful and relieved I sped barefoot and in my nightgown down the steps through the hell and to the front door to let the cat in. She ran past me, up the stairs into the apartment directly to her litter box! I don´t want to exaggerate but not only due to my personal relief the sound of her sumptuous scratching of the sand in her litterbox sounded rather joyful. Judging the extent of her business, she seemed to be quite delighted to be home again and was a civilized cat after all.

In the meantime I had put fresh food in her bowl in the kitchen and when she came out of the bathroom, I took the harness off her. Then she devoured the food while blinking happily at me. Grateful and relieved I went back to bed where she followed me a short while later, and took her favorite spot purring loudly. In that manner we both went to sleep blissfully nestled together.

The experiment worked, all involved happier than before

Since then Seval´s evening excursions work beautifully: at some time around 9 pm she scratches at the apartment door and I let her out of the house and about 20-40 minutes later she sits under the balcony and wants to come back inside. When I then open the front door she immediately comes out from under the bushes and runs up the stairs into my apartment. As this now works so well she is allowed to go without the harness – for now she finds her home again. And when it´s rainy or I´m out she is  happy to spend the evening inside.  But she does enjoy her nightly outings, she seems more balanced, eats more again and both of us are most happy when she comes home, just like we are, when I come home from one of my outings and we are reunited once again.